One life from now, I am done with my PhD. I still struggle with the econometrics but who doesn't? (: I thought I have chosen the job of my life, now I know I have actually chosen to the path to my spirit. So betrayal would have meant not just quitting a degree but lying to myself. I had to convince everyone that I was on the right track and yesss I am... I still see the question marks in some people's eyes. Is that really you Perry? Of course, you would not recognize me, since I change. Every step of this preparation period (may I call it apprenticeship) was a step towards who I wanted to be: a fair-minded human with a decent life. I chose a man who loves me, we are building a new way together -- I sometimes picture us with a little loved one. But s/he has her own time as well. Looking forward...