Random coin flipping

When I was a child, I never kept a journal. My sister did. I was always curious what she found to write about every day. Now that I am keeping this blog (and, yes I am keeping it), I realize there is a value to it. It is not like every detail of my life is here like it would be in a typical journal. But at a higher level, I believe there is a good amount of notes to trace back what I have been through and to reflect on.
It has been raining cats and dogs for four days now and I have been in my cave thinking. Then I wanted to write and remembered the existence of this blog. I read the last post and crashed in tears. Since my last post, can my world change so much? It had actually gone upside down, I realize. How did I end up being a professor? In a totally different country? By myself. Sometimes, I feel like an alien thrown out to live this particular life. As if, there are millions of light years between the old and the new. Of course, it is not like I have no roots to remind me of who I am. I definitely do. I love my parents, my sister, and my husband. But as I am alone in this 40m2 one-room house for three days now, working on a presentation, watching an entire season of Breaking Bad, meditating, and making it till dawn, I feel like a coin. One side heads: Where am I? Why am I here? What am I doing? I do feel loved and loving but all from a distance. Where is everybody? When is my show going to begin? Is it going to begin? And the other side tails: This is like what I dreamt when I was a kid though that house was much smaller and in the middle of nowhere. Hell yes, I am enjoying every bit of this whatever we can call it the scene / chain of moments / life more than ever and this time I know the only way is up and forward.
Oh God, the Holy Mother help us with the whole new world we are creating...

One life from now, I am done with my PhD. I still struggle with the econometrics but who doesn't? (: I thought I have chosen the job of my life, now I know I have actually chosen to the path to my spirit. So betrayal would have meant not just quitting a degree but lying to myself. I had to convince everyone that I was on the right track and yesss I am... I still see the question marks in some people's eyes. Is that really you Perry? Of course, you would not recognize me, since I change. Every step of this preparation period (may I call it apprenticeship) was a step towards who I wanted to be: a fair-minded human with a decent life. I chose a man who loves me, we are building a new way together -- I sometimes picture us with a little loved one. But s/he has her own time as well. Looking forward...

A lifetime away!

Yes, it has been almost a year... In a different world, with a different me and with different concerns, I feel like I am in a new life. Can a person die and reborn in just one life? Good to have a place i.e. this site that feels like home. Otherwise wouldn't have realized this journey. After so long, I did yoga today, feeling my muscles, being aware of my posture, breathing felt so good. I feel your precious memory, Irma, you made yoga so beloved part of me. I didn't know I was flexible, nor did I know that I could quit and start all over again. Though I still haven't made it to India or Indonesia, I believe I'll find my way there one day, in another life, as well. Tonight, I pray for your blesses soul!

Absolutely fascinating !

This one goes for the ones who know Turkish. It is about serendipity and wu-wie - the art of not working against the law of things. Hope you enjoy it as much as I do. It is really mind opening. Cheers!
https://youtu.be/I6cc3YPQXHY

WHAT'S IN A NAME?

How does branding work with a positive vs. negative framing? For a discussion on a movie titled 'Towelhead', check this out: http://wip.warnerbros.com/towelhead/name.html

So now, we got our independence what are we going to do with it...

First year of my PhD is over. I am still delving with ideas but have no solid way. I've decided marketing strategy is the best way to approach my interest in CSR - stakeholder theory. But it is so challenging to keep up the spirit, since all marketing folkes are into rock solid marketing. As they say, a PhD is like a marriage - you set your agenda for the next 10 years when you decide on your thesis topic. I went through your publications Mr. Bhattacharya. I am grateful to what you have done. I will read your papers and I am sure, I will gain deep insight on my research interest. Hope to meet you one day and tell you about this post.
... say I am who I am and that's I wanna be!

Up next my marketing ideAs.

Cheers,
Perry.